I can’t believe it’s been a year. My baby Olive was born last year on Thanksgiving morning, at 3am. She was the first one to be born to the hospital that day.
When I think back about how quickly it’s all gone by, it stuns me how we got here. I was completely unprepared for all aspects of motherhood. Seriously. I stopped reading all pregnancy books after the chapter on Labor, because that’s all I was worried about – the pain of birth. (Who knew that labor was the easiest part of this last year? Truth.)
When I first held Olive in my arms after 12 hours of labor, I remember being worried that I wasn’t crying. I had always imagined the moment when I would first meet her – I would be in a puddle of my own emotions, overflowing with love for this tiny creature I created. But I wasn’t. Instead, I held her in silence. I was in awe of what I had created, but in complete fear of what we had gotten ourselves into. That first night as Olive slept in her bassinet in my hospital room, I just stared at her all night. What were we going to do?
Of course we figured it out, I guess. With the help of this book and that book, and an amazing sleep trainer to boot, we were able to pull through and find balance in our new lives as parents. Olive has become an amazing little person who is vocal (like me), inquisitive (like her father), and passionate. She absolutely loves music, to dance, and string cheese. She seriously hates people who are too loud, most veggies, and airplane rides (OK that might be me.)
In honor of her first birthday, we threw her a small birthday party at our home, and invited a few close friends.
I wanted to keep it bright and happy, so I kept to a rainbow polka dot theme. I handmade the garlands and used them around the house as well as a photobooth backdrop. It turned out to be perfect – Olive was in great spirits, and together with many loved ones, we celebrated her amazing first year. (Yes, I made my husband wear polka dots too)
And now, before I wrap up this post….
To my dear daughter,
If you ever happen to read this down the road, I want you to know that you have taught me how to love. Before I met you, I didn’t understand the concept of unconditional love. I thought I did, but I had no idea. I actually love you with every cell in my body. How is that possible? I’m not sure, But I do, and I always will.
My favorite part of the day is when I come get you out of bed in the morning. You’re always happy to see me. And I, to see you too! I love that you have a favorite song, I love the way you smell, and I love how you snuggle me during your bedtime bottle. I love that you’re so ticklish under your chin. I love that you’re so generous with sharing your food, although I feel like this will change in the near future, especially with string cheese. Everynight, when I tuck you into bed, I actually miss you, even though I know you’re right in the next room.
Thank you for making me a mommy. Thank you for being my daughter. Thank you for being who you are, Olive. And Happy 1st Birthday, I can’t wait to see you grow into an incredible person.